the 'study week'

this is how it looks like on our 'study week'. im in the library right now, supposed doing revisions together with Maz. tighten up by all the subjects, have to release some of it or else we all goin' crazy.

what are the KPLI-PI's doing at this moment?

Maz and Ariffin are reading the paper, Ivy and Nerty is chit-chatting outside the library, Evelyn and Ad are playing carrom, Aleng and Ozlyn are missing and cant be found, Zura and Ayu are at the cafe, Mel is behind me surfing.. and me.. blogging to fill up this boring time hehe~ enjoying this moment while the wifi is still available, cos the connection sometimes sucks here.

Maz and I posing happily. mintapuji kan :P

wake me up when november ends..

busy bee..

i've been busy for this past few weeks. busy with unfinished (last minute) assignments + curriculum activities plus few other activities. its supposed to be our study week this week cos exam will be next week.. sigh~~ i know eventhough im not good at doing revisions, but at least i still have the heart to study (last minute, again..)

the schedule of the year

final exam = 03-05th nov '09

induksi kissm = 06-23rd nov '09

spp interview = 09th nov '09

posting = 01st dec '09 (scary)

why i said scary? cos i wont know to which district will they send me? to which school i'll be teaching? hope it wont be far away cos i dont want to be far away from my loved ones.. but im really glad that its finally over~ and soon everything will be back to normal by december. and hope this year will bring me good luck and happines. with hopes and dreams to be fulfilled by end of this year. i want to settle down before i hit '30'.. *winks*

do i sound too much? did i expect too much? im not sure. i just feel there's something missing in my life. maybe im thinking too much. or maybe im pressured by my surroundings. i dont know..

november is coming veRy soon, and december will be knocking us in days.. i cant believe its already coming to end of the year. and so many things happen to me this year. the laugh, the cries, the sorrow, the pain, the happiness.. wish my next year will be filled with joy and prosperity hehe~ and wish my next year will be something meaningful to me =)

xoxo. love and peace ya'll!

when love and hate collides

its seriously none of my business when it comes to personal issue. but sometimes it makes me sick knowing that word 'appreciate' and 'loyalty' is not in our 'life dictionary' anymore. i dont understand why we sometimes get carried away about enjoying ourself when there is someone who cherished and appreciates us was abandoned away. screw that. good people will get what they want in return. believe in karma. it will get you.

im not here to mumble. im just here to give my opinion. why in the world today is turning upside down? why does our hopes and dreams can crashed away in just few minutes? in just small matters? is that a reasonanble reason? is that reason strong enough to support your reason? think about it. there are still other ways rather than hurting someones feelings. if you dont want to be hurted like that, then dont do something that you dont want it to happen to you. have faith in urself cos we can do it, we just need someone to support us.

sigh~

guess maybe this is what we call life. everyone has their ups and downs. everyone has experienced their ups and downs. we can control whats happening. we just need the strength, courage and support to do that. if your instinct says you're doing the right thing, then go for it. like a friend of mine says "follow ur heart, cos your heart knows better"..

God will listen to us when we need him. we just have to wait. believe in Him. He knows better what to do.

"My biggest advice for anyone dealing with the heartbreak of an unwanted breakup is to look very carefully at the person who broke up with you and look very carefully at yourself. If you are radically honest, you will see a myriad of ways that you asked for the breakup to happen as well as the ways that you deserve something better in relation to an other" ~Moongirl

The Vitamin C Injection Fad

this morning, i was having this conversation with my classmate evelyn about vitamin c injection. i asked her whether she knows about it or no and she said yes. infact she had tried once and it costs below RM100 that last for 2-3 months. i asked her if there were any bad side effects, and she said so far no. i'm actually thinking of wanting to try it out, but i doubt about the consequences that will happen in the future.

now im having a 'small arguement' with babe about it. it can cause kidney problems he said. and a bit of article and facts research supports his statement.

okay.. i'm wrong. sigh~

isn't there any easiest way to maintain everything in a simple way? like the statement "beauty is pain", i believe every woman agrees with it. i do agree in certain parts, but not all can bear with it.. no pain no gain eh?

superwoman vs wonderwoman

superwoman by karyn white

I'm not your superwoman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down
And think that everything's okay
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional
Hugs as a token of love from you to me


wonderwoman by mulan jameela

Aku bukan wonder woman mu
Yang bisa terus menahan
Rasa sakit kar’na mencintaimu
Hatiku ini…
Bukanlah hati
Yang tercipta dari besi dan baja
Hatiku ini bisa remuk dan hancur

both songs has its own similarity. and i loved both of it. im no superwoman nor wonderwoman. cos im just an ordinary human being with hearts and feelings that is easily hurted and can only be cured by time and 'uncoditional love'..

the love part 1

the peeps who had been with me thru thick and thin.. love you all!!

siapa makan cili, dia rasa pedas

i came across on my fb post that i posted few days ago this morning. someone suddenly gets mad about the post. why? how should i know. only the person can tell me why is he/she so angry about it. the only reason i posted such statement is because i feel that it is true that certain people still think not using their brain but using their 'other' head.. which part of head? i don't know.. you tell me.

i dont understand why must it be an issue when that statement was not dedicated to anyone, it's for all to think and its just my quote of the day. i feel sooo annoyed when everything i do has something to do with him/her. stupe head! please realize that it's not all about you! and has nothing to do with you! but.. you made everyone thinks that it's you, so be it.

that is why, there are sayings that "siapa makan cili, dia rasa pedas".. but i would like to add something..

"siapa makan cili, dia rasa pedas, sebab dia lupa minum air"

sekian, terima kasih.

everything happens for a reason

"i've learned that sometimes you just have to say fuck it and just live"

text testing

im asking babe to help me to customize my blog. im not very good in editings.. need more to say, these coding stuff. while waiting, im learning new things on my own.

now i know, its fun learning something i dont know =)

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okay, that font was supposed to be a 3D text, but it didn't work. trying to figure why and how to that. if it still not working, then i'll need babe to rescue.. heheeh~

retard

yup, this is me. looking retarded. not really sure it was a candid pic or not.. another retard pic of me below:

edrie and i. taken during year 2006 i guess. when we were one of those active midnighters food-seekers! ~ngeeehhh~ no wonder we gained weight lol!

i really missed those silly moments with my girlfriends. there are more retard pics of me and them, but guess i have to ask their permission to upload or else they'll be coming up to keningau and snipe shoot me *kidding girls*

you're the inspiration

You know our love was meant to be
The kind of love that lasts forever
And I want you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
You're always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul, Baby

(Chorus)
You're the meaning in my life
You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than I need you

And I know, yes I know that it's plain to see
We're so in love when we're together
Now I know that I need you here with me
From tonight until the end of time
You should know, everywhere I go
Always on my mind, in my heart
In my soul

(Repeat Chorus)

Wanna have you near me
I wanna have you hear me sayin'
No one needs you more than i need you
You're the meaning in my life

You're the inspiration
You bring feeling to my life
You're the inspiration
When you love somebody 'til the end of time
When you love somebody
always on my mind
No one needs you more than I.
When you love somebody 'til the end of time
When you love somebody
always on my mind
I need you...

living under his blurry shadow

i realized after the 'break-up' incident, i've been living like a refugee. running away from someone who dont have the rights on me. who's not worth it to be with, who doesn't deserve to be with. why am i hiding away from him? i should enjoy my freedom after years of loyalty and humble. i should live my life to the fullest. i should be enjoying every moments i have, replacing the times when i was once being a so-called 'good girlfriend?'..

all his messages, calls and threats are making me sick and tired day by day. it's bothering me to the max. i keep on asking myself, why should i be nice to him when he's done a lot that makes me suffer? i know and i realized that i'm damn stupid, wanted to be nice to him, wanted to be friends with him.. and when all these efforts had cause me such serious troubles and problems. and advice from my girlfriend "block and ignore him, even if it will cause such havoc, don't give a damn about him!".. i know its true. but deep down inside me, i keep on asking myself 'why?'.. why i still want to be friends with him? why can't i just let him go? i am letting him go. i want him to be happy, just like i am now. i'm happy with my new life. surrounded with my dearest friends and family, and to start a new life with someone who appreciates me as who i am. i'm truly blessed! guess i'm just too good to be true. being nice at the wrong time and wrong place. can anyone please help me to be someone cold just for once?

... and for now, i hope everything will end soon. i've involved and dragged everyone i loved into this mess. and i don't want them to be involved in my personal problems, cos they don't deserve to be in that circle. dear God, please help me to get out from his shadow. i'm too tired now. i couldn't handle it anymore.. i couldn't bear it anymore.. for once, i just want to live happy like everyone else.. babe, thanx for saving me from the nothing i've become..

goodbye

'its over'.. a phrase as simple as ABC to be understood by all. but guess certain people is just stupid enough to know the truth. or they're just being stupid not to understand it at all??

i learn something from the past. never hope to high on something we expect very much. cos in the end, when we can't achieve it.. it will cost such pain that is unbearable. everyone of course wish to be with the person we love happily ever after.. but when things didn't work out as planned, then that's the time when we act out of control.

i changed my number.. the number that i've been using since 2004. the number which has tons of memories to be remembered. moving forward now. carry on. go on. looking forward to the future and never turn back again.

just for laugh

what do you think? =D